A conscious decision

It is a conscious decision to believe he did not want to hurt me when he nevertheless did

It is a conscious decision to talk to him when I don’t feel like it

It is a conscious decision to not turn away

It is a conscious effort to reach out even when my arms feel like lead

It is a conscious decision

To believe in Him and our past

And to remember

That there was always a hand when I reached out

That there was always an ear when I talked

To believe in all that more

Than to believe in my present emotions

is a fight

It is a conscious decision to forgive

every wrong word

Love is not a walk in the park

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© AngelikaJahn 2013

pic: google

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About blue

I am a divorced single mum to a teenage kid, and at present re-emigrating to my homecountry Germany. Writing helps me to clear my thoughts, but as well to turn sadness, fear, and regret into something beautiful and release it from my heart.
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